Re-evaluation; remembering Truth

I am one of those who will go to the back of the line if it means putting elderly in front.  I am one of those who will walk a little longer, if it means allowing someone else to ride.  I will tell you; I have lost a lot of opportunity while I made the room for others to get ahead. I feel content; I know my soul is unique, kind, and one of a kind; but I have also allowed bitterness into my mind lately; as I seem to watch more and more of the wicked prosper because they are not willing to allow for an underdog; it is all about their own abundance.  Some people feel this world is theirs to take possession of; and become full of greed. Some are blessed with more knowledge than most and make a huge difference for others and content with just enough.   Some just need to be shown the way; some will definitely take the way.

Colossians 3:23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward.  It is the Lord Christ you are serving.  Anyone who does wrong will be repaid for his wrong, and there IS NO FAVORITISM! 
I do hold onto pride; and started the end of last year feeling I wanted to let it go; I will say; I had my time of allowing even violence become a part of my world because of pride in the past. It doesn’t matter how full of pride I have been; one things true I have never had a callous heart; I have never been so conceited it caused my mind to be evil to another who didn’t deserve it. 

I am no judge; but I will always root for the underdog and happily place those down who need it; this is not my world; this is not theirs, it is ours.  Keeping my heart pure doesn’t have its immediate reward; but I choose to hold onto my innocence until I understand a little more of the journey I am on that will lead to my final destiny.

Proverbs 16:2 All a man’s ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord

There are some; who seem to have very little struggle; it seems their lives have been fulfilling while they continue on with their strong and healthy bodies; and others struggle with weakness and health issues that all of a sudden came alive and become a part of someone’s essence.   Health is so important for success; realizing a person lives with some sort of disability can feel like a plague; a downward spiral casting one down to ruins.  It is necessary to change your mind; what you once were; may never be again; and where you are headed may take you down a complete different path from the road you previously traveled.  

Life can really be a fantasy; our life is what we allow; if we have a beast to fight; we must become our own hero; whether anyone recognizes it or not. 

It is normal to grieve; take time to understand how changes will affect all those involved; but don’t pause for too long; don’t allow fear keep to keep you from becoming all you can; allow your spirit to grow and venture in the new direction even when things don’t make complete sense.  When things don’t make sense; the bitter can stay ignorant; but when we allow our self to go with the flow and trust and have faith it is easier to get through the new and unknown remembering those who are with you physically and in spirit; like God and grow.  Ask for his counsel; he will show you the way; and like a light switch understanding will turn on; there is nothing on this earth we are taking with us; but our spirit.  When our flesh and heart fail; our strength will be found in our Lord, that is all we will have for eternity.  Anything; and all things we keep near us will stay alive; those things we allow to fade in the distant will disappear and perish.

One thing I have learned recently; my physical home~ is gone; our “tent” was destroyed; but the building we still have ownership of~the one we invested in is strong and indestructible;  the dwelling we are housed in with the Lord; our love as a family; the support we receive from our friends, our ability to get up each time we are knocked down because those are the things that were not built with our hands but with our spirit and the determination which we know all glory comes from, that from the Lord.   We may groan; cry, and sigh for a while but we know we are clothed in dignity even when all our cloth clothes are gone.  We all have our own burdens; but most earthly items can be replaced in this life; it is our spirit we must remember to never allow to be taken and vulnerable; that is when we lose the ultimate guarantee of all those things, that which we can lose and never replace. 

None of us are home yet; so we are all homeless in a way, finding our way.  Of course we can make a home anywhere we go; but the truth is we are only at home when we are with our maker.  We must remember the truth, we live by faith; NOT BY SIGHT.  If we have no faith; and we see with our eyes we are really blinded by the world~ ONE day we will have to answer for all those things we did while in our body; whether anyone saw/knows or not~ our judge knows.

Psalm 90:17 May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us~ yes, establish the work of our hands. 

Thank goodness; thank JESUS for forgiveness!

If you are of right mind; it really is up to you to decide.

Philippians 2:12 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed~not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence~continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling. 

The more time that passes and the older I get; I get a feeling it is about feeling content with whatever comes my way; it is about learning about my immediate circumstance; remember what it feels like to have plenty; know and not forget what feeling needy feels like, and feeling content in both circumstances. Understanding; that what ever it is I have or don’t have; anything is possible through him; who gives me my strength.  During anytime I feel unsure; remember to ask him; he is generous and gives to me without finding any fault~ the truth is I have to believe; with no doubt; because when I doubt I am like a wave at sea; blown and tossed by the wind.

James 1:12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. 

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